Oct 10, 2010

Quieting the Soul

Friday and Saturday were spent in quieting the soul at a hotel directly on the beach. This shot was snapped from my room door with my 50mm lense. Which means...no zoom. The surf really was just a few yards from where I was sleeping. I could hear it roar all night. Both days were clear and bright and the ocean was absolutely beautiful.This dear couple made the weekend possible for me. My mom invited me to a women's retreat with my childhood church and paid for me to go with her and my stepdad watched the kids (except for Tessa who went with me). At the end of the retreat, Rick brought the kids over and we spent the rest of the day enjoying the sand and surf. It was wonderful to have a couple days free of distractions, in such beauty to reflect on God's love for me, His beloved. I reflected, basked in His love, and came away rejuvenated with some new thoughts.
I am His beloved and nothing else. There is a hole in His heart in a shape that only I can fill and He yearns for me. I enjoyed being wrapped up in this comforting thought all weekend. Secondly, I wear a lot of hats that can distract me from truly communing with God- wife, mother, teacher, friend, business woman, community outreach. Yes, I chatter to God all day long in my head. He is a part of every moment. But wearing so many hats leaves little time to hear Him and leave room for Him to respond or to prompt me. At this moment in time, there is really nothing that I can cut out. I feel that I have made good boundaries in my life. It's more that I need to make room for silence as well. Some days I am distracted and treading water rather than seizing the day.

So often, I leave little room for God to talk back, for Him to walk with me, for Him to whisper, "This is the way. Walk in it. (Isaiah 30:21)" I don't listen to His nudges as He prompts my day.
I often just blaze a trail and invite God to come with me. So backwards forward. I needed this weekend.
But beyond this weekend, what I am I going to do to listen better? I realized that I needed an object, a reminder. A sacred place to meet God or it will happen just as haphazardly as it is now.
I will be making a prayer rug in the next week. I plan on attaching scriptures to it and making it pretty. Something to roll out and to get down on my knees before Him on. Something to make me stop and assume the posture of humility and openness to what He may tell me in the quietness of the soul.
I plan on meeting Him there quite often. I am rather excited about it. The lover of my soul is calling. I can't wait to answer.
Psalm 27:4-8
One thing I have asked of the Lord, that will I seek after;
That I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord,
and to inquire at His temple.

For He will hide me in His shelter in the day of trouble,
He will conceal me under the cover of His tent;
He will lift me high upon the rock

And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me,
and I will offer in His tent sacrifices with shouts of joy;
I will sing and make melodies to the Lord.

Hear O Lord, when I cry aloud;
be gracious to me and answer me!

You have said, "Seek my face."
My heart says to you, "Your face Lord I do seek."

This is how the Message Bible translates that last verse:
"My heart has heard you say, "Come, talk with me.' And my heart responds, 'Lord, I am coming.'"

A beautiful invitation isn't that?
Lord, I am coming.

1 comment:

  1. How wonderful to have some moments to refresh and renew. Being surrounded by beauty sure helps to put the focus on God and His Splendor. I love your idea of a prayer rug. I would love to see it once you've finished it! My mom crocheted a shawl for me last year. She called it a prayer shawl because while she made it she prayed for me. Now when ever I wear it I remember and treasure the prayers and also am compelled to think about God and pray at that moment. Wasn't that a sweet gift?!