Nov 9, 2010

Deep Thoughts and Silly Moments

From time to time I read deep things. I like to think deep. My creative, flighty brain enjoys a challenge every once in a while believe it or not, and two of my favorites are C.S. Lewis and Philip Yancy. On my last airplane trip I was reading Yancy's book, I Was Just Wondering. A book of musings on questions he has that do not necessarily have an answer. In one particular chapter he writes on the subject of time and quotes C.S. Lewis's book, Reflections on the Psalms. Yancy writes about us,

"In all of earth there are no exact parallels of spirit and immortality housed in matter. The discomfiture we feel may be our most accurate human sensation, reminding us we are not quite "at home" here. Lewis mentioned one (oddity of human nature):...our startled reactions to the concept of time. The last page of Reflections on the Psalms summarizes the transitory, suspended state we live in.

'We are so little reconciled to time that we are even astonished at it. "How he's grown!" we exclaim, "
How time flies!" as though the universal form of our experience were again and again an novelty. It is as strange as if a fish were repeatedly surprised at the wetness of water. And that would be strange indeed; unless of course the fish were destined to become, one day, a land animal.'"

At any rate, I understand this. Each day I feel a little sadness that one piece of my child's life is now over, they are just a little bit older, a little less my baby. Hunter wanted to sit on my lap today while I read him a book. How much longer will that last?

Thankfully, I am also reminded that we were meant for more than to live our time and fade into oblivion. According to the Biblical view of humanity, there is transcendence. Death is not an ending. We were created for something much greater, though in our fallen state we sit in time.

In C.S. Lewis's book The Last Battle, one of my favorite passages ever in a book is the closing.

"And for us this is the end of all the stories, and we can most truly say that they all lived happily ever after. But for them it was only the beginning of the real story. All their life in this world and all their adventures in Narnia had only been the cover and the title page: now at last they were beginning Chapter One of the Great Story which no one on earth has read: which goes on forever: in which every chapter is better than the one before."

This has been on my mind the last couple of weeks as I really try to seize the day with my children, knowing that my small amount of time is passing quite quickly. How do I already have a 6 year old, a 3 year old, and baby that is 5 months and no longer my newborn?

We were at Walmart and Target this week and we discovered that the costumes were on sale for $3 and $5 a piece. We even found a few things for a dollar. We brought home a couple bags for the kid's dress up boxes. I was helping them cut off the tags and they were putting on a costume show for me when we got home, and I discovered one of the costumes seems a bit bigger than it was supposed to be. To be silly for Hunter, I put it on and it fit. He was giggling so much that we decided to take a silly picture. Which turned into a silly romp with my children in front of the camera. Seize the day!
At any rate, I decided life is too short to not thoroughly enjoy my children and do completely silly things with them. We posed like chickens, stuck our tongues out, did "tough" guy pictures, etc.Ainsley found an Alice in Wonderland costume. Hunter found a pilot, gorilla and a jedi. I am wearing the knight's costume. The two kids spent the whole day today in their pirate's costumes (not pictured). And why not? We even brought Tess in on it, though I'm not sure she thought it was as funny as we did. Hunter and Ainsley were giggling so much they were having a hard time holding the pose we were supposed to be doing.
I am so very glad that we documented this. As the person behind the camera usually, I am not usually in the photos, and I am sure my kids would want these some day. I treasure family photos with my parents in them and a day being silly with mom is a keeper. I want them to have these memories with me. I did not even use the good camera. That was not the point. I didn't want a pretty picture this time. I wanted something that could easily capture a happy memory.


  1. I loved this post, Jenny!
    I got goosebumps reading the quote from The Last Battle. It's been TOO long since I've read those books. You'll enjoy reading those to your kids when they're a bit older. Times spent reading with my mom are some of my most special memories of her. The way we'd all crowd around her to be close, the way she used silly voices and laughed as heartily at the funny parts as we did...

    The pictures of all of you dressed up gave me the biggest smile! You're such a good mom! It looks like you all had a blast :-)

  2. you`re amazing mom
    you`re full from energy
    thank you very much and good luck! )=